Your so-called love, so deadly in-sincere

The predator with head held high

The minister who acts as king

Planning his move with lust in his eye

It begins with kindness, praise and flattery

"You'll make an excellent apostle,

Just follow me."

Quickly the pedestal grew towards the sky

Oblivious of the danger

A man glorify

Move on to admissions, manipulation

Workings so subtle until I'm under your thumb

The puppy dog look you'd perfected so well

"Don't you understand, I'm living in hell

I want you, I need you, I love you my dear

But don't wear your glasses,

Don't straighten your hair

Most important don't tell anyone

About our little affair

Are you sure you don't want to screw

Not even once?"

The kind of questions, indescretions

Endured for months

Eventually I tell you that I want out

This guilt, this pain is destroying me

Onto the next round called cruelty

Sadistic sermons, comments and leers

Hiding in closets shaking with fear

Little girl screaming, invisible, reeling

Clutching a grown man, her only life

Him desperate to save his broken wife

For he is the only one who can see

How silence bound me, stripped me and wound me

Into a tight knot of shame and rage

While you, the predator, act so proud

That I willingly walked into your cage

God was my life, then God became you

Aware, but uncaring, what you put me through

Oh thank you my minister for crossing that line

For leading me back to my God of wine

But I let it continue and I played my part

Naive and vulnerable I handed you my heart

Onto the final round called guilt and self-blame

For letting myself be a pawn in your game.